It’s been a few days since I last wrote anything. To be honest, I haven’t felt motivated to write anything the past few days. I have had my good days and my not so good days. All I want is for this nightmare to be over. It still feels like everything we are going through isn’t real. I keep looking over my shoulder thinking that someone is going to come out from behind a curtain or a wall and say, ‘just kidding, you don’t have cancer.’ Unfortunately, it hasn’t happen yet. This week is a very busy and important one. River starts pre school today, I have a IV treatment later this morning and tomorrow I have my port installed. Overall, I am feeling pretty good about everything, but there are times when everything is quiet I start thinking about things that I shouldn’t or that are outside of my control. It is a daily battle to remain positive, but a battle I am willing to fight. I am not too sure when chemo will begin, but I think it may be this week. There is a lot to plan and organize as my treatments begin. Getting to and from treatments, getting our kids to school and back home, making lunches, speaking engagements, work and everything else. It is going to be a crazy next 6 months, but we are up for the challenge.