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Next Steps

Posted on February 6, 2016

How are you doing?

Amazing! Great! I feel the best I have ever felt!

That is usually my response when people ask me how I am feeling/doing.

I still find it difficult at times to wrap my mind around this diagnosis. Other than the treatments, and all the dietary changes I have made, I don’t feel like I have cancer. To be honest, I find it to be one of the most frustrating, and confusing experiences I have ever endured. I just want it all to end. I want the nightmare to be over.

Many of you have been asking what happens next? Well, the plan is to increase the Vitamin C therapy I receive from 50 grams per day up to 100 grams. We have seen great success with these treatments, and we hope to have more success because of the increase in volume. I will also continue to have my lymphatic detox treatments on a regular basis until the doctor feels I am in a better position. The key is to keep my body as healthy as possible. Having a healthy, and strong immune system is critical for me in the fight against this horrible disease. Along with all the weekly treatments, I hope to have an MRI done as soon as possible so we can see how things are doing.

Please continue to pray for us. We need it!

We need wisdom right now to know what to do. The ongoing costs of treatment is quite expensive, and with the IV treatments increasing in the next week, we need a miracle! The cost of my treatments will be approximately $1500.00 per week. To most, we know this seems crazy, but so is poisoning yourself with chemo & radiation – just my honest opinion. We are aware the naturopathic route is a personal choice, but we feel it has been the right choice for us. Jamie and I are working on some projects to help us raise funds of our ongoing expenses, and we hope to share them with you on the blog next week.

Until then, thanks again for all your love and support during this time. You guys are the best!




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In A Room Full Of Strangers

Posted on August 6, 2015

The waiting room was already packed with people as I walked through the doors. All eyes were on me for a brief second and then they returned to their smartphones, newspapers and magazines. There was a tension in the air. I would imagine fueled by fear, concern and the unknown. So many stories all in one room. I took my number and found my seat. Thoughts were racing through my mind as I stared at the TV. What am I doing here? Why are all these people here? How long will it take for my number to be called? Number 51 I hear being called. Number 51? That’s me. I get up from my seat and head over to the nurses desk to sign in. I give the nurse the information she requires and return to my seat. I can’t help stop thinking about what everyone is here for and what they must be thinking? Did someone just find out they were diagnosed with cancer? Is the lady in the pink shirt here for a follow up? What about that guy in the ball cap, why is he here? Suddenly I hear, Mr. Sabourin? Is there a Mr. Sean Sabourin? I stand up and make my way over to the 79 year old volunteer who will walk me to my CT scan. He was a happy old man. He shared with me how he had be volunteering at the hospital for seven years as we walked towards the CT department. He wished me luck I as entered into the waiting room and turned around and told me that he was on his way to pick up a 91 year old and bring him back here. As he walked away, I couldn’t help but wonder what his story was? Why was he here? Why did he make a decision to volunteer at the hospital all those years ago? I waited for a few short minutes and then it was my turn to prepare. I got on my gown and headed into the room. It was time.

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Big Day

Posted on August 4, 2015

Tomorrow is kind of a big day. I have a CT Scan scheduled in the morning. I have never had one, so I don’t really know what to expect. A CT Scan is CT, or CAT scans, are special X-ray tests that produce cross-sectional images of the body using X-rays and a computer. CT scans are also referred to as computerized axial tomography. Two weeks ago I had an MRI and I am still awaiting to hear of the results. It can be a struggle at times waiting for results, but we continue to remain positive that everything is going to work out just fine. I also received news about my appointment with my Onconlogist on August 23. At times I wish everything would happen a little quicker but I have to trust the process. I am thankful very thankful for our medical system here in Canada. Yes, it is not perfect, but to think what others must go through, causes me to be thankful. I would appreciate your prayers for tomorrow. I am not afraid of the scan, and I am not too consumed with the ‘what ifs’ but they are there. They are always there trying to wreak havoc in the back of my mind. I fight on a daily basis to take those thoughts captive and remind myself that He is with me and that He is good!

Sean

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Overwhelming

Posted on July 30, 2015

For the most part, today was a good day. I spent some time with a friend out on the waters fishing. It was good to get out and try and get my mind off of things. We talked about many different topics and sometimes we didn’t talk at all. It was good just being in the moment. I catch myself drifting at times. Thinking about the possibilities of the next few steps and then thinking that this is all still a dream. I don’t think it has truly set in yet. I think when I meet with my doctor and we talk about the plan of action it will become more real.

Later in the day my mind started to think about how amazing it has been to receive countless texts, Facebook messages and phone calls. It is overwhelming to say the least. I know our family is being cared for through all the encouragement we have received.. I spoke with a friend last night who is battling brain cancer. It was great talking with him and at the end of our conversation we prayed for one another. It was a special moment. He prayed with such honesty and sincerity. It was a real encouragement to have him pray for me and I hope in some small way I was able to encourage him.

I just want to say thank you to everyone who has gone out of their way to send me or Jamie a note of encouragement. It may not seem much to you, but to us it is huge. So THANK YOU! Your words have power! They are a source of encouragement and strength in this season of life. So please know you are making a difference in our lives. Remember, no matter what He is still good!

Sean