How many remember the story Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde?
Have you ever seen any of the films?
I think it is pretty safe to say that most, if not all of us have seen a movie, or heard the story of Jekyll & Hyde. Lately I have been feeling like a maniac. Ever since getting back from Mexico I have felt ‘off.’ I have had no energy, my body has ached, and I have been an emotional basket case. It’s hard to explain at times the wild range of emotions you experience on a journey like this. Emotions can be like a tee·ter-tot·ter.m – sometimes you are up, and sometimes you are down.
I feel helpless at times. It feels like I can’t control my emotions, and that’s a problem. I like control – don’t we all? I recently came across this quote about control: “control is an illusion.” I was curious to understand more so I Googled the origin of the quote and this is what I came across:
“The illusion of control is the tendency for people to overestimate their ability to control events; for example, it occurs when someone feels a sense of control over outcomes that they demonstrably do not influence. The effect was named by psychologist Ellen Langer.”
It’s painful reading that paragraph. As much as I want to think I have control, the reality is I don’t. None of us do. Our emotions are powerful. They can be a gift and a curse all in the same breath. If not properly dealt with, and understood they can become dangerous. If we let our emotions get the best of us – we could be asking for trouble. Trust me – I know! This why I have been feeling like Jekyll & Hyde as of late. One minute I am on top of the world, and the next minute I am either angry or want to hide under a rock somewhere. All I want is some balance. I just want off this terrible ride.
Please continue to pray for our family – especially for Jamie & the kids. I hate putting them through this. It doesn’t seem fair. At times I would rather just be alone, because it is too painful to watch your family have to deal with a Jekyll & Hyde. Thanks for all your love and support during this time, it has meant the world to us! Love you guys!