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It Got Me Thinking

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Yesterday was a great day! Being on the open ocean,surrounded by such stunning scenery does wonders for an individual. We caught a bunch of fish and unfortunately had to release nearly 20 as they are closed for the season. Overall, it was a very successful trip. Later on in the evening, Adam and I headed over to April’s Point to check things out. As we were taking the water taxi over to the other side, I saw a father and his daughter sitting next to each other, talking about their upcoming fishing trip. As I watched and somewhat overheard the conversation unfold, I got a little emotional thinking about my daughter and sons and all the things I want to do with each of them individually. I started to think about how young they are and fear began to creep in because I so badly want to be there for them. It amazes me at times because I think I am in control of my life. I realize on a daily basis how much I am not. None of us are. You may think you are, but you are not. It’s only an illusion. I cannot control and dictate my future, but I want to live each day to the fullest. I want to enjoy every moment, but this is where the battle is for me. I get caught up in petty little things that only rob me of potential joy. I need to learn how to embrace them. As I sat on the boat and watched this father and his daughter enjoying a special moment, I couldn’t help but to think about my own kids and all the things I want to do with them. I don’t want to die at an early age. I want to grow old with my wife and kids. I want to make memories with them that nobody can steal from us. I want to be there for them, but I realize I have no control over that. As much as I want to, I don’t. I can only do what I can and trust that everything else will work itself out. I’m not in control. He is!

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