I am two days away from beginning my second cycle of chemo and to be honest, I am not looking forward to this. I only started feeling normal again just a couple of days ago. My energy levels are gaining and my appetite is definitely coming back. I still feel like everything is one BIG nightmare and I am hoping to wake up soon. It’s hard to describe what being on chemo is like. I don’t really think there is anything to compare it to. Chemo robs you of everything. It takes you to the brink of death, only to let you go at the last second. This process has been hard for the whole family. The kids are affected because daddy has no strength or energy to do the things they want me to do with them and for Jamie she is on duty 24 hours a day. I think all of this has been the most difficult on her. Through it all though, she has been amazing. She is the most sacrificial person I have ever met. She is constantly putting us before herself and it is hard to watch at times. I feel helpless. We have been so fortunate to have so many people helping us out. From taking and picking up our kids at school to groceries been dropped off and so much more, we have truly been shown the love of Christ by our community. I don’t know where we would be if we didn’t have the support that we do. I think through all of this, the support we have been shown has been the one thing that continues to blow me away. Our family and friends have been loving us well through this and to each of you we are eternally grateful. On Wednesday I go to the cancer clinic at 10:30AM to have my second cycle and then I return on Friday to have my ‘take home chemo’ removed. On Thursday and Saturday this week, I will be at Integrated Health having my local heat treatments and my Vitamin C IV treatments, so here we go again.
