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God Answered My Prayer

Now I understand that some may scoff at the title of this post, but I am ok with that.

Just say’in.

But honestly, He did.

A couple of weeks ago I had this idea of contacting some friends I know in the ministry and see if I could come and share our journey at their church one Sunday. Just as I was preparing to send an email, I had this sense that I shouldn’t send the email. I wrestled with that for a bit, because everything inside of me wanted to send the email. I didn’t send it. I just waited. Later that day, I had these words flash across my mind’s eye ‘pray about it. Ok. I know that voice. I have heard it before. So I right there I poured out my heart before the Lord. I felt at peace, and that I was just to leave things well alone. God had heard my prayer.

The very next day. Honestly, I am not making this up. I received a phone call from a gentleman inviting me to speak at an upcoming banquet. The very next day! Can you believe it? Now some out there may say, ‘just coincidence.’ Say that all you want to, but I know God answered my prayer. Does He answer all of them? No. Why does He seem to answer some, but not all? Good question. I don’t know why.

What I do know is He answered my very simple prayer. “God, would you open up doors for us to share the story You are writing with our lives.” He not only answered it the very next day, I have also been invited to two other places to come and share. It is so humbling, and yet exhilarating to know that God hears my prayers – that alone is enough for me!

Praying for more doors to be open…




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Encouraged

“We are going to beat this together!”

Were the words that echoed from my ND lips yesterday. Even now as I write this post, I am moved by what he said.

Each week I meet with the doctor to discuss how I am feeling and he does weekly testing. It is always interesting to see the results each week of the treatments I have had the week before. One of the things I have grown to enjoy during our weekly appointments are the random discussions we have. We talk about life, marriage, health, and a plethora of other topics.

This appointment we had been talking about some of the emotions I experience while detoxing. At times, my family tells me that I am not fun to be around. It has been difficult lately dealing with my emotions. One of the possible results while detoxing can be a change in one’s emotions. I have found during this journey that my emotions sometimes get the best of me. He was very helpful and encouraging, but what he said next was so powerful to me…

“We are going to beat this together!”

Man, I needed to hear that. It was the shot in the arm I needed to keep me focused, and determined for the road ahead. We all need encouragement on a regular basis. Life is tough, and it can throw some pretty crazy curve balls at you, but that’s why we all need encouragement.

Who in your life can you encourage today?




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Waiting

How many of you struggle with waiting?

I sure do.

Right now I am currently waiting on getting my blood work results back sometime today. I haven’t had any blood work done since early November to see where my tumor markers are. At that time the tumor markers read: 16. Here’s hoping that we see some positive results. Waiting can be difficult, because we are usually impatient people. We live in a ‘fast food’ society, where no one wants to wait for anything. We want results, and we want them now. As I have been waiting for the results, I have been doing everything I can to keep my mind focused. I have actually felt ‘ at peace’ this entire time as we wait. In the past, I would not do well waiting. My mind has the propensity to wander at times to places it shouldn’t. I have done all that I can to take my thoughts captive, and I feel really good not matter what the results are. Although waiting can be difficult, wait we must. Stay tuned. We will keep you posted!

While we wait, here is a a portion of Scripture I am holding onto:

Isaiah 40:31
“but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary;
they shall walk and not faint.”

FYI…

Here is a little more info on tumor markers:

What are tumor markers?

Tumor markers are substances that are produced by cancer or by other cells of the body in response to cancer or certain benign (noncancerous) conditions. Most tumor markers are made by normal cells as well as by cancer cells; however, they are produced at much higher levels in cancerous conditions. These substances can be found in the blood, urine, stool, tumor tissue, or other tissues or bodily fluids of some patients with cancer. Most tumor markers are proteins. However, more recently, patterns of gene expression and changes to DNA have also begun to be used as tumor markers.

Many different tumor markers have been characterized and are in clinical use. Some are associated with only one type of cancer, whereas others are associated with two or more cancer types. No “universal” tumor marker that can detect any type of cancer has been found.

There are some limitations to the use of tumor markers. Sometimes, noncancerous conditions can cause the levels of certain tumor markers to increase. In addition, not everyone with a particular type of cancer will have a higher level of a tumor marker associated with that cancer. Moreover, tumor markers have not been identified for every type of cancer.

How are tumor markers used in cancer care?

Tumor markers are used to help detect, diagnose, and manage some types of cancer. Although an elevated level of a tumor marker may suggest the presence of cancer, this alone is not enough to diagnose cancer. Therefore, measurements of tumor markers are usually combined with other tests, such as biopsies, to diagnose cancer.

Tumor marker levels may be measured before treatment to help doctors plan the appropriate therapy. In some types of cancer, the level of a tumor marker reflects the stage (extent) of the disease and/or the patient’s prognosis (likely outcome or course of disease). More information about staging is available in the NCI fact sheet Cancer Staging.

Tumor markers may also be measured periodically during cancer therapy. A decrease in the level of a tumor marker or a return to the marker’s normal level may indicate that the cancer is responding to treatment, whereas no change or an increase may indicate that the cancer is not responding.

Tumor markers may also be measured after treatment has ended to check for recurrence (the return of cancer).

How are tumor markers measured?

A doctor takes a sample of tumor tissue or bodily fluid and sends it to a laboratory, where various methods are used to measure the level of the tumor marker.

If the tumor marker is being used to determine whether treatment is working or whether there is a recurrence, the marker’s level will be measured in multiple samples taken over time. Usually these “serial measurements,” which show whether the level of a marker is increasing, staying the same, or decreasing, are more meaningful than a single measurement.




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They Say I Have Cancer

Never did I think I would utter those three words. I lost my biological mother to lung cancer last year and my mother died 8 years ago of non Hodgkin’s lymphoma. I know way too many stories of people who have lost a loved one to cancer. Even as I write this I cannot help but think this is all a dream. I can’t have cancer. I am a healthy, 39 year old male. Sure, I don’t always eat the way I should, but never in a million years did I think cancer would affect me personally. I have a thousand questions racing through my mind and I am scared. I don’t know what is going to happen but I am going to remain positive through this journey. I know my family and I are not alone and we are grateful for all the support we have. We choose to trust Him through this process and know that no matter what, He is good! This page is to capture the journey my family and I are about to embark upon. I invite you to join us. Please feel free to leave your comments in the posts below. Also, send me your prayer requests. There are many people in our corner helping us and praying for us and I want to do the same for others.




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My Story

It was pitch black and I couldn’t see a thing. All I could smell was vomit. Confused and and freezing cold all I could think about was, how did I end up here? Everyone has a story and this is mine – the Reader’s Digest version anyways.

I was born in Scarborough, Ontario to a teenage mother who was on her way to prison. Rather than raising me in the prison system, she decided to give me something she would be unable to, a family. She decided to place me up for adoption, the single most difficult decision she would ever have to make.

At the age of 10 weeks, I was adopted by Raymond & Patricia Sabourin, a loving couple with two daughters. I was raised in a small town called, Stratford, Ontario. I had anything and everything a kid could ever want. My parents did the best job they knew how raising my sisters and I. They would tell me daily they loved me and I was their God chosen son. Little did they know, this had a negative affect on my sisters.

I was approximately 4 years old when they told me I was adopted. I remember the day like it was yesterday. In the moment, I don’t believe it affected me outwardly, but I believe something was awakened within me – something which would affect my life in a profound and destructive way. Fast forward 10 years.

One, cool, Fall day after school, a friend of mine approached me and asked me if I wanted to get high. Get high? What was that? Curiosity won that day. We wandered behind the elementary school and attempted to smoke our first joint. When I say attempted, I mean, neither of us really had any idea of what we were doing. Nathan lit it up and I never looked back. Two weeks later we dropped acid.

Now I don’t want to bore you with all the details of my 10 year adventure. There are many things I have done which I am not proud of. I have seen and know tremendous despair. Darkness was everywhere. It consumed me and I couldn’t see a way out. It finally took me waking up in my own vomit one night to finally realize I needed to change. I had come to my senses.

My sister had told me about a place I could go and get help. I was finally ready. With the help of my family, I went to a one year program and got the help I needed. This was just a start. I was able to address some of the issues in my life, such as rejection. I was given tools to make good, healthy decisions and received inner healing which was necessary for me to live a life free from and dependency on drugs. One of the most important gifts I was given during my program was the Word of God. Four days after entering the program, a group of men from the Gideons came and shared about what they did and they gave each of us our own personal Bible. This was the first time I was ever given a Bible as an adult. We had a Bible in our home growing up, but this was my very own, personal Bible. Upon completion of the program I moved to BC and began to help establish a new work in the lower mainland to help those who were trapped in addiction.

This move was the beginning of a new life. A new life filled with hope and purpose. An opportunity to use what I was given to help others and in the process help my self by becoming the person God had always intended for me to be. There is so much more to my story, but it isn’t over yet. My story, just like yours is still being written. Exciting isn’t it? Knowing there are many more chapters to be written and you and I are the writers. Enjoy!